Thursday, February 11, 2010

Sometimes the truth hurts.........

The meeting went well with the therapist, but she decided that I'm not ready yet. She thinks that I need to prove something to myself that I can do this. So she has given me a challenge. She wants me to exercise every day until our next meeting on February 22nd. I was upset at first about not getting the automatic all clear, but its for the best. I thought about going back to therapy once banded but why not start now? I think ultimately it will help to keep me focused.

The hardest part was her telling me that what I'm doing currently is hurting my kids. Even though I knew this it was very hard to hear. I want to be the best version of myself that I can be. So the plan is to walk with the dog or go up and down our stairs at night if I can't walk at lunchtime. And on the weekend I would like to try to incorporate the kids into something. Saturday is the seminar and I'm still very excited. My DH is going with me and I hope that I can get in quickly to meet the surgeon.

The motto is still Keep Moving Forward!


  1. Hang in there. I think you have the right approach. Keep everything else moving forward and work with her for that coveted sign-off, too.

    Do you have to do a six month supervised program or do you know yet? This exercise idea can actually end up getting in your way...just be warned. Your BMI can't go below 40...(or 35 with comorbidities).

    If she thinks you need to prove something to yourself, that's interesting. I'm guessing it relates to a previous blog about will this work? You hit the nail right on the head there in that blog...this IS different.

    At least it's only 11 days away.

    I am just about at the end of a six month supervised program. The insurance requirements are not easy - but they are invaluable. I've asked many questions of myself during this time and answered quite a few of them. Some, by default can't be answered until I am banded. You really do learn if you are committed or not. If I can commit to these ridiculous games, I KNOW I will be committed to the process when it can go MY way.

  2. Thanks for your kind words. I'm really lucky because what I understand of my ins policy so far is that I just need sign off from the therpist, an EKG and blood work. I'm fortunate that there isn't a waiting time. I know about the BMI "problem" and told her about it. She understood. Which is why I'm not really changing any of my eating habits. So I will probably maintain. I will of course be weighing myself through the whole process so I will be sure not to lose that magic number. Isn't it silly?

  3. It's great that you only have to get a few signoffs and tests. I have to wait the six months so even with your therapist not signing off yet, you could still get the surgery before me. I don't mean that to sound like I'm jealous - although I am :) Just wanted to help you see that not getting approved right away might not delay you too much.

  4. Hang in there! It sounds like you have the right attitude about it. Like a previous poster, I have a 6 month diet as well so you're still ahead of some of us. However, my doc and insurance has confirmed that they take my starting weight, not the weight after the 6 months so you might want to confirm that. Good luck!

  5. Jen - I need to be walking every day too - if you want to go out together one night, let me know!

  6. Hi Jenny,

    I just found your blog today.

    Wow! You seem to be having just about everything thrown at you BUT the kitchen sink!! What a bunch of problems!

    Yours, is the first blog that I have read where the Psych Eval wasn't giving the go ahead immediately!! But maybe this means that once you actually get the go ahead, and your Surgery is done, you won't have any problems from then on!! That would just be too cruel!

    Here's wishing you the best of luck in getting all the sign offs you need quickly. I will be Following you in your journey.

    I was banded on 11/19/09 and I am in Bandster Hell!!! LOL

    Debi: Hawaiiboundbandster

  7. Jen--I'm so sorry that you didn't get instant approval. I know that sucks! And I know it's easy for me to say (I've been banded since June) but in my experience I really was trying to get approval (with whatever means necessary) I was trying to figure out what to say to the psych lady to get her to give me instant approval...etc. But, looking back, I wish I would have really given the psych eval alot more of my own head issues with weight loss. The mind is the key to this success and if you take your time and really work thru the "readiness" part of things, I really think you'll be glad you did--I wish I had!!

    Good luck to you getting your band!! It IS different--in ways that you don't expect right now. But most of all it gives hope again. I really enjoy your blog! Keep it up!