Thursday, August 19, 2010


That is what work feels like. A game of survivor. Everyone is out for themselves.

I'm going to call the Dr. today and see if I can get a fill. I just feel like I can eat anything I want. I need some restriction. I just need a little something to help me get through this hump. It makes me feel like I'm cheating. Isn't that weird. I got the band because need the help and now when I get fills I feel like I'm cheating. I just can't balance work, home and me time. I know that this will pass and I will get there I just don't see the way out right now. I think that that was part of the reason I stayed away from the blogs for so long. Almost like I didn't feel good enough to be here when I wasn't doing the work.

I'm so glad that its almost Friday. I need the weekends to regroup in my head. Right now there aren't any big plans but thats ok with me. Enjoy your Thursday!


  1. Shoot buttercup, do not feel like it's cheating. You had surgery and you should use your tool anyone you can or need to that is going to make you happier and healthier. It the bandsters that DONT stay on top of fills that struggle.

    Happy Thursday right back at you!

  2. You're so not cheating. Chin up pumpkin.

  3. Aww, sweetheart, you aren't cheating. Fill or no fill, you're still doing the work! You are chosing the foods, you are doing the exercise, you are working it through in your head. The band is just feedback. And the feedback might as well be utilized, it's why you underwent surgery. We get out of the band what we put into the band. You invested in yourself. That's what the band is!

    I understand the struggle, though, don't get me wrong.

    I hope you are able to get the balance back. I hope work works itself out and that things settle down.

    Don't stay away from the blogs if you can help it. You are so totally "good enough" - you are more! You bring a vivaciousness to this world that isn't found anywhere else. I love your blogs and your comments! And it might help to blog about your feelings, you might find others feeling exactly the same way.

    Of course...time is a factor. :) Dangit, we need a 28 hour day!

  4. So not cheating - you're working with the tool that you have. Sorry work is sucking.

  5. Definitely not cheating. And, hell, I have hardly been working lately either. So we can get through this funk together!

  6. If you need a fill, you need a fill - it's not cheating. I hope things turn around for you soon.

  7. Hope you are having a relaxing weekend and are able to regroup. As everyone has already said - don't feel guilty about getting a fill!