"There comes a time when every life goes off course. In this desperate moment you must choose your direction. Will you fight to stay on the path while others tell you who you are? Or will you label yourself? Will you be honored by your choice? Or will you embrace your new path? Each morning you choose to move forward or to simply give up."

This is a quote from One Tree Hill. (love that show even if I'm too old to watch it!) I think that this is perfect for where I am right now. I have decided that I am tired of fighting the same battle over and over again. So I have a choice, I can continue an unhealthy lifestyle or I can seek the help that is being offered to me. I have thought about the lap band surgery off an on for a long time. I put it off because I thought it was the "easy" way out. Now that I have really researched it I realize that it is nothing like that. There are still hard choices to make and you can still mess up. But its a tool to help you. Like so many others I have tried numerous diets/programs and I've been able to lose about 20lbs. But then life happens. And here I am, 15 years after my first diet still "trying".

No sob stories here. My weight is my responsibility. I can't blame genetics or say that I make good choices but still gain. The truth is I make bad choices because its easier. I took the first step by signing up for a seminar on Feb. 13th. I am so nervous and excited all at the same time. My DH is coming with me so I feel better. (one of my many issues-I don't like to go it alone). I scheduled my psych eval for next week so I can get that out of the way. I hate being patient.

I guess this is it for now. Just wanted to get this started. Thanks for listening!