Friday, October 15, 2010

Friday is weigh in day bullet style

  • 188.2!!! Goodbye 190's! I'm so relieved. I was so nervous getting onto the scale this morning, because I thought those 180 numbers were a fluke the other days. So, minus the heartburn that I'm experiencing which I hope will subside, this fill is definately working. I feel a lot of restriction and its helping me to slow down and be more mindful. Since I know that I can't eat as much I find myself saying "Self, you can't eat much. Do you really want that _________(insert junk) or should you just eat your healthy lunch that you packed?" Don't get me wrong I still indulge but its usually something I really want, or after I've eaten my healthy stuff. Hopefully this fill will last longer than the others.
  • I'm still working on getting the pictures for Jen to redo my blog. Its hard to find pictures that I like. I didn't want to be the fatty that puts pictures up of things because I hate how I look. I also didn't want to bombard with pics of my kids for the same reason. So I'm trying to come up with things that describe me or have meaning. Bear with me, I'll be working on that this weekend.
  • On my last post. Dizzy's comment struck my heart. I'm not really ready to talk about it. Maybe I'll do a vlog so its not so long. Right now in this moment I can't. For the record though, I'm not upset with my husband. I know that he wants the best for me and I know that his heart is in the right place, because mine was when I asked him to get on meds. I know in my head that there is nothing wrong with medication. Thats why we have it. Maybe its admitting that I need it that I have trouble with. This is more of a vlog. Tell me now to stop talking. Please.

16 comments:

  1. Oh honey - NO - do not stop talking. I hope you are okay....I love you sweetie. Hang in there.

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  2. Well done on getting in to the 180's! Fantastic achievement!

    Hope that you manage to do your vlog, I know that its hard but you're being so brave.

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  3. take your time but keep talking :-) we are here for you darlin!

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  4. Sorry - won't tell you to quit talking...talking is just what you need. Glad the 180's seem to have taken a good hold. Hope you feel better about things soon.

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  5. Congrats on the 180's, I can't imagine how that would feel! Hang in there sweetie, we are here for you no matter what!

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  6. Congrats on making it into the 180's! I know how monumental that feels.

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  7. Even if you write a novel, we'll read it! Keep talking... it'll work out. Love ya, girl.

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  8. HELLO 180's! And do NOT stop talking, please. I have to tell you that medicine can improve the quality of life so much. It's not a sign of failure, it's a sign of a strong woman making her life better. That's you...

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  9. Congrats on the 180s WOOOO HOOOO

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  10. 180s...congratulations!! And I hope you never stop talking, I love your blog.

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  11. Congrats on 180s!!!!!!!

    I use prilosec otc - it's worked miracles for the heart burn.

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  12. I've been a sucky blogger friend lately so sorry I'm so late on this, but congrats on getting to the 180s. Hopefully we'll see a vlog soon.

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  13. Like Bonnie, I have been a terrible blog friend lately as well. But I have been catching up on everyone's blog since I just came back into town. And no more 190's?? What?! Girl that is amazing! You are gorgeous and I love you to pieces! Hope you are doing great!!

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  14. Hello! Just checking in with you...hope all is well :) Busy time of year!

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