There are going to be a lot of firsts on this weight loss journey. I experienced a "first" this weekend. On Saturday we took the kids to see Shrek 4, which was really cute by the way. And I was getting ready which normally is an agonizing process. But when I looked in the mirror for the final once over, I wasn't horrified. I'm starting to see a waisteline, collarbones, 1 chin.......
I'm actually starting to feel better about the way I look. Its weird, but I'm not running from mirrors anymore. Not that my journey is done-trust me I know I still need work, but for the first time I don't feel so hopeless. And that feels pretty good.
I have this huge list of things that I want to do now. To the house, for myself. Its almost never ending. Brian (DH) thinks I have ADD because I move from one thing to the next. But what he doesn't get is that I've always wanted to do these things, I've just never felt good enough about myself to do them. Its like I didn't deserve them in some way so I never talked about them. I've started/continued to clean out the clutter at home. Slowly but surely I'm working on it. I actually went shopping last weekend and got a new shirt and sunglasses. I never go shopping for myself, especially clothing. I usually only buy accessories because they are one size fits all. I'm playing around with my makeup more than I used to. Trying new looks. I'm really wanting some hair extensions! They're really expensive. I found "Hairdo" by Ken Paves and Jessica Simpson that are clip in pieces that I might try when I reach another goal. Its kind of pricey, almost $100 but way cheaper than the real thing.
Also, I know I slacked with the photo comparisons. It rained the 3day weekend. 3 days locked in a house with a 4 and 5 yr old was not fun. I love them, but I was glad to get them off to school by Tuesday! Needless to say I never got into my bathing suit over the weekend. I wanted to take the photos the same way I did the first time, but that might not work out. Okay, this is super long and I hope it made sense and wasn't just rambling!!