3 month Bandiversary

First I want to thank everyone for their advice. I'm still stuck in the middle. I tend to lean more toward what dinnerland said because I don't think this situation will get much better-if the woman truly has someone that she wants to bring with her. I have been applying for as many jobs as I can, but they all have the "Don't call us, we'll call you" mentality. So we shall see how this plays out. I'm trying to stay as upbeat as I can, but as you know I cannot lie (unless of course its about the cost of something!) . Its hard, but life is hard sometimes. And sometimes, things just suck ginormous donkey balls.

Today is my 3month bandiversary! Its not my official weigh in day, but the scale is holding steady at 198.something so I'm down from 233. Thats 35lbs. I'm super happy with that loss because I know that its gone for good! I need to work harder at getting into some sort of workout routine. I've been doing well with my mini goals from last week so I decided to keep them for this week. I'm going to try to work out some sort of exersise schedule for next week. I have an appointment with the dr. today so I will post my comparison shots later. I took my measurements the other day so I'll post those too!

My buzzed vlog

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Fridays weigh in.........

198.8! I met my mini goals for this week. For this new week I really need to increase my exersize. I know its important. I'm going to give my mini goals some more thought today and see what happens.

I may do a vlog later to update on my job situation because things have gotten a little worse. I use that term relatively. Actually I'm not sure how I've made it through this week. To give you a preview, my current boss told my new boss (who I haven't met) that I'm negative, I struggle with the job and I'm inconsistant. How do I know this? Oh, my current boss told me she said it. Yep, you read that right. Its definately a vlog worth story. Since getting all of the information I have been a little down in the dumps. I haven't been commenting on the blogs, but I have been reading them. I promise to start comments soon. I'm going to catch up this weekend. I'm so glad its Friday. I need a break from seeing certain peoples faces.

Just a warning the vlog may be a buzzed vlog and may have cursing. You have been warned!

Wrinkled Wednesday

I feel like life is a little wrinkled right now. Things aren't awful just a little imperfect. I think I'm getting my new boss around mid July. I'm not sure how I feel about this yet, its really too soon to know. I won't be meeting her before hand so its hard to get a feel for what her style is. I just changed my hours at work to 7:30-4 and this has been awesome with the kids. We are able to get home by 5 and have a nice dinner like a real grown-up family. When we were getting home before dinner was always so rushed. Now if I could win the lotto and not work at all I'd be set! LOL

I have been having some really bad days lately. I got into an argument with a co-worker who is a friend yesterday and I wound up crying-twice. Mainly because I was so angry. We are fine now and the issue is over but I hate that it even started. Draz talked yesterday about fitting in with your family, I don't feel like I fit in at work. Its hard to spend 8hrs a day here. My current boss doesn't really let me help with things unless they are crap jobs like photocopying. I've had the conversation with her several times, I've reached out across the network to other administrative assistants (we are a national company) to get their advice and ask what their daily list looks like and have taken ideas back to my boss, but she won't budge. She says she just doesn't have anything to give me. So I get stuck with all the stuff no one wants to do. And I know that I am capable of more than that.

I also don't have the same background as everyone here. They are all college educated and PHD's. I'm more of a learn on the job girl-street smarts etc. I think in a way they look down on me for that. No job will ever be perfect, and I think that I've dealt with jerks at every job I've had, but this is really the one time I've never really felt part of the team. Maybe this will change with the new boss coming in. I've tried applying for some jobs outside the company but we all know what the market is like and I haven't heard anything from any of them. I think its just bringing me down. As much I would like to be guarded, I wear my feelings.

On a high note, I have been sticking to my goals so far and have done pretty well with my eating. I have had a cupcake and that pesky twix bar but the scale said 198.4 today so I'm happy about that. I almost did a vlog last night, but I had a glass of wine and was a little buzzed.

As always thanks for letting me vent. I appreciate the outlet.

Mondays and Mini goals

This weekend was so busy. The kids wake up so early that I feel like I never get to bed! The scale still 199.8 today so I'm thrilled! My husbands boss is having a get together on 7/17 thats 4 "weigh ins" away. I would like to lose 10 more pounds by then and I really think I can do it. My mini goals this week are:

• Plan, Plan Plan
• Excersise or do something for 10minutes a night (I know this isn't intensive but I feel like to get back into the swing of things I need to start small and focus on some consistancy)

So today, I had some Fiber One pancakes with blueberries in them, a few ounces of cheese, 2 slices of chicken with cranberry sauce and 1 slice provolone cheese and a twix. I didn't plan the twix but this has been a shit*tastic day at work. Bad stress eater. But whatever it was what it was. :P

Tonight the plan is to hit publix for dinner, spend 15 minutes cleaning out a room that is a disaster, 1 load of laundry and FINISH the dishes! I have a habit of leaving them to "soak" since the dishwasher busted. I'm trying to make a to do list each day too. Maybe it will help me focus?

Free Ice Cream Maker give away!

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Fridays weigh in & BYOC

I hit 199! I'm excited but its still too close to the 200's for me to get wild over it. I celebrated by going to a jewelry/scentsy part on Friday. It was fun. I went with someone from work. I never really rewarded myself for any weight loss, so I bought a really pretty sterling silver bracelet. When I get it I'll take photos. It was $74-which was so expensive to me, but it was my 30lb loss reward. I'm down now 33lbs, so I may get the matching earrings at 40lbs. I forgot to check the price on those!

BYOC

1. If your heart had a singing voice, whose would it be?
Someone who really can't carry a tune, think Cameron Diaz in my best friends wedding.

2. What is your most disgusting habit?
Total popper and skin peeler.

3. Carmen and Drazil were talking about Chicago and their fears...for those of you going (and those of you not you can answer as if you were going)...what is your biggest fear?
Meeting everyone and not making any friends. I know its lame, but I worry that everyone will get a long and I'll be an outsider.

4. This isn't so much a question but a challenge. Name one thing you will do for just one day next week in the name of health and commit to it on your blog and to us.
Bring my meals to work! If I chose to go out with the girls thats ok, but it will not be out of desperation!

5. Whose blog or comment stuck with you the most this week?

This one is always hard for me because I really enjoy reading everyones blogs. I really love all the progress photos and seeing how far everyone has come.